I know the majority of our posts on this blog are about once you have the baby, but I just had to share in this momentous pregnancy moment that I had this morning.
Today I am 22 weeks, 2 days pregnant, with my first baby - a little girl - and as of this morning, I had yet to feel the baby kick/move. I have known since about 9 weeks, that I have an anterior placenta, meaning it is in the front, under my belly button. Because of this placement, I had been told by my doctors that I wouldn't feel the baby kicking as early as the normal pregnant woman - but should feel something around 20-22 weeks.
Over the course of this pregnancy I have been reading posts on Babycenter.com about people feeling the baby kick at 13+ weeks (which if you think about it is kind of ridiculous because your baby is the size of a grape!) and felt terrible pangs of jealousy towards these ultra-sensitive skinny mothers-to-be.
I wasn't concerned about not feeling anything, nor was my doctor, because at every ultrasound, our future tennis star has been moving around like crazy. But, every since it has been 20+ weeks, I have been itching to feel something other than this insane gas I have moving around my intestines.
Well, this morning it happened. I got kicked from the inside - and I seriously didn't know whether to cry or to throw up! It was so emotional, but creeped me out a little too - I have a human being growing inside of me! Shouldn't I be used to this fact by now? I have been pregnant for almost 6 months, and it took us 2 pain-filled years to get me pregnant!
The crazy thing is that my husband could feel it from the outside - he was beaming - I was in shock. Of course I thought it was magical, but all of the sudden a rush of emotion came over me - holy shit do I have a lot of things to do in the next 17.5 weeks! What if she comes early! I need to get new carpet installed in the nursery! I shouldn't have eaten that tuna sandwich last week! What if Ellie (our dog) scratches her?! Crap I forgot to take my vitamins yesterday! What if I can't breastfeed her? I have to start shopping at Whole Foods!
And now, as I type this, I know it doesn't matter if I am ready or not, I am about to be a Mama. Our lives as we know it will be turned upside down in a mere 4 months, and it will be incredible. I can't wait to meet this little girl, to see what she looks like...I can't wait for my husband to meet his first blood relative (he is adopted)...I can't wait to see if she is chatty and creative like me, or a genius like her father (both please!)...I can't wait to see my parents with her...I can't wait for her to meet my friends babies - most of whom are boys so she has lots of potential boyfriends...I can't wait to dress her up in fabulous outfits (some of which I have already purchased)...there are so many things to be excited about!
And I can't wait to see who wins this season of Project Runway - because, as crazy as it sounds when I say this, I will be a mom by the time this season is over!! AHHHH!!!!!