When I got pregnant I heard all the time how breastfeed would take all those extra pounds, I would loose it and never look back.
Now breast feeding never really worked out for me and the food in America is so yummy I'm still looking like a chubby 9 month pregnant women.
How does anyone do it? I work from 9-6 Monday to Thursday, I leave home at 8.15 and get home usually 6.45 by then I'm so tired and just want to chill plus any classes at gyms are over and done with, on Fridays my hubby works and I have alone time with my bg so we try to get out and do fun things but no gym, no gym ever it feels like.
I used to be really big (well I'm only one size away from that really big) and joined ww, it worked great for me, I had a goal and I had a firm week to week thing, but ww is a lot of involvement, the cooking, the counting, the meetings, and all that took up so much time, it made me think less of those snacks in between coz I had to plan everything. I'd love to get back to that, but I have no time now.
What did you all do? Seriously though, with very little time, no family around to help out and a young baby.
what happened to me?
where did I go?
I have gained pounds and a little wonderful amazing girl, but where did my will power go?
Do you ever feel lost and then ashamed for that feeling?
I always try to be honest with anyone who asks me about who things are at home, with baby and all, If things at the moment are good, I'll say just that, but if they are not so good I'll say that too, no one else seems to though, everything is always peachy.
I have been reading this blog www.motherhoodwtf.com
it's so funny, open and honest and it makes me feel better about life and the world.
I do picture this women as tall, slim and very very pretty coz that's how she sounds, but nice, a little bit scary, but she sounds nice....
I am hoping that my postings on this blog might not be as funny but they are open and honest, I think we need more of that in this world...
lots of love to you all.
xx
Showing posts with label Weight Watchers. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Weight Watchers. Show all posts
Saturday, June 30, 2012
Sunday, January 9, 2011
Let the Point Counting Begin...Again!!!
As one of my New Year's resolutions I have decided to take better care of things in my life. Take better care of my house by keeping it cleaner and neater than usual. Take better care of our finances by keeping better track of our spending, and spending less in general. And most importantly taking better care of my body, which I haven't done in a long time now.
So last week I decided to start back on Weight Watchers. After months of binge eating and working out only once or twice a week, I got to the point that when I would look in the mirror and was disgusted by what I saw. One would think that that fact alone would prompt me to do something about it, but I kept eating, and kept making excuses about going to the gym.
It wasn't until I was packing for Florida and I came across a photo (not photo on right, but I thought that one was priceless) of myself from a holiday party at my old office from 2004, that I really decided something needed to be done. I know exactly what I weighed then, as it was the skinniest I have ever been in my adult life...and it was 40 pounds lighter than I am now. I had a jawline! I didn't have to suck it in! My belly didn't jiggle! I wore belts! I was sitting on the floor of my closet with Marlo looking at the photo and I said "look baby, this is skinny Mommy. It looks like a different person right?" And the more I looked at this photo of this gorgeous skinny girl, in a size 10 jeans and Medium shirt with a slight hint of a flat tummy peaking out, the sadder I got, until the tears came and what I was looking at made me want to throw up.
Of course I then went to Florida where my mom, as usual, had stocked up on our favorite junk foods, and we were eating things out of gift baskets for a week. But on the 30th of December my body started to revolt. I got a stomach thing and was throwing up, and had the runs (I know gross but it happens to everyone!) for 24 hours. You know what it was? It was my body telling me "THAT IS ENOUGH FATTY!" It wasn't food poisoning, it wasn't a virus, it was my body revolting and giving me a sign that I have been abusing it for too long. And what a way to kick start a diet too :).
So now it has been 7 days of officially counting points again. And thus the 5th time in the last 7 years I have started on Weight Watchers. The first time was in 2003 and I lost 35 pounds, and when I started I was the heaviest I had ever been...until this time of course. And at the end I was that skinny girl you see in the photo above...but I realize that I will never be that skinny girl again. At that point in my life I was living with my girlfriends, going to dance class twice a week (one class was 4 hours long), working out before work every day, and worried about what my then-boyfriend thought about the way I looked. Now I take care of a 13 month old, am home in my house most of the day (surrounded by food), have a husband who loves me no matter what I look like, and basically live in "lounge wear" all day long.
So last week I decided to start back on Weight Watchers. After months of binge eating and working out only once or twice a week, I got to the point that when I would look in the mirror and was disgusted by what I saw. One would think that that fact alone would prompt me to do something about it, but I kept eating, and kept making excuses about going to the gym.
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| Skinny (and braless) Mama J in 2004, with a DJ I was convinced was Justin Timberlake (the celeb love of my life) and my BFF. |
Of course I then went to Florida where my mom, as usual, had stocked up on our favorite junk foods, and we were eating things out of gift baskets for a week. But on the 30th of December my body started to revolt. I got a stomach thing and was throwing up, and had the runs (I know gross but it happens to everyone!) for 24 hours. You know what it was? It was my body telling me "THAT IS ENOUGH FATTY!" It wasn't food poisoning, it wasn't a virus, it was my body revolting and giving me a sign that I have been abusing it for too long. And what a way to kick start a diet too :).
So now it has been 7 days of officially counting points again. And thus the 5th time in the last 7 years I have started on Weight Watchers. The first time was in 2003 and I lost 35 pounds, and when I started I was the heaviest I had ever been...until this time of course. And at the end I was that skinny girl you see in the photo above...but I realize that I will never be that skinny girl again. At that point in my life I was living with my girlfriends, going to dance class twice a week (one class was 4 hours long), working out before work every day, and worried about what my then-boyfriend thought about the way I looked. Now I take care of a 13 month old, am home in my house most of the day (surrounded by food), have a husband who loves me no matter what I look like, and basically live in "lounge wear" all day long.
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